Valentine's Day.

So I just go done watching the movie Valentine’s Day. Excellent movie, I give credit to everyone who participated in it. This chick flick had a sense of reality to it; it was the type of movie that just made you think. Remember last year’s movie He’s Just Not That into You? Both movies had that sense of knowing that what’s going on in the film is also happening in your life as well. How and why do screen writers do this? I mean, you spend so much time trying not to think about your “love situation” then movies remind you. I mean, what is that?

One thing that I remember from the movie Valentine’s Day is that you gotta love someone for who they are. It’s the whole package, not just half of it. You just know of when you are in love or like someone. It’s a moment of where you don’t need to just think about it. When you’re about to be married, you can’t “consider” marrying the person. From what I heard you need to know it and feel it. If the man uses you, calls you from time to time, invites you over and talks to you when they want too. It feels wrong to hate them; you still like them for who they are. You allow them to treat you like shit because you like them so much. Even if you know you want to be with that one person on Valentine’s Day; you still end up alone. I have no idea of what to do. Can I even survive Valentine’s Day? I wanna text him “Happy Valentine’s Day.” I don’t wanna sound desperate but more as a friendly comment. Is that possible? Or in my situation, would that seem inappropriate on Valentine’s Day?

I never really get emotionally attached or drained on Valentine’s Day. I normally just don’t care but I am afraid that I will be an emotional wreck. While everyone is out being with the one they love; I will be sitting on the couch, under my throw blanket, drinking whatever is in my fridge and throwing chocolates at the TV watching The Notebook or Pearl Harbor. If I get the guts, I might glance at his photo from time to time or maybe even try talking to him. My sister and her husband had their first date on this day. She says she is happy that she met “the one.” As well as mentioning that she is happy she is done with dating because guys suck and are pigs. This is so true. I have this feeling that everyone is going to end up married and fall in love but me. I’ll be the old lady with cats living in her house. Everyone will find their own happiness but me. I know that there are many things wrong with me. I will save you your sanity by not posting all of them. You would be staring at the screen for 5 min if I did.

It just seems like girls can’t be friends with guys. It’s either your together, booty call, friends with benefits or nothing at all. This is worse than in elementary school when we used to think sitting boy-girl-boy-girl was a sin. All of these happen to me; I have come to reality with it and have accepted it but it still kills me inside. To some people, Valentine’s Day is just a sexual activity day. It doesn’t matter if you are taken or single, it’s the one day that amazing sexual festivities are expected on this day. Who am I possibly going to pleasure or have fun sexual tension with? Well, if cupid aims right and hits him in the ass right it will be him. If not, I can have activities with someone else but that won’t mean anything. I’ll just think I am a whore because I don’t really “like” the person. So, what will you do on Valentine’s Day?